My friend asked me a very interesting question the other day. She asked, "How much do you think you've changed in the past 5 years, zero being no change and ten being vastly changed." I said perhaps six or seven. She said she thought I was an 8 or 9. And I think she meant in a good way. That surprises me a bit. I didn't quite know what to say. Perhaps I don't even realize because to me, the change has been gradual and slow. But to someone who doesn't see me very often, I suppose change can be more easily spotted. And now that I'm thinking about this more, I'd like to know more about the changes that can be seen in me, whether they are good, bad or whatever.
I'm trying to explore my brain a little, and try to clarify what aspirations, dreams, hopes, etc I have. Some are obvious, while others are still vague.
These things I know:
I want to pay off my debt
I want to paint. A lot.
I want to go to Europe
I want to go to Africa
I want to learn a language (but whichlanguage, I'm not sure)
I want to witness a miracle.
I want to fearlessly introduce Jesus to people
I want to be wise
I want to hunger and thirst for righteousness
I want to know God
Those are just a few I guess. And I write them for really nobodies entertainment, but cuz it's good to record them, and I'm thinking about it at this moment, so why not.
God has been so good to me. He's blessed me with the greatest friends, and I treasure them dearly. He's given me an amazing job, for which I am eternally grateful and almost two years into the job I'm still happy and dumbfounded that I do what I do. He's blessed me with good things, things that I don't even need, but he finds pleasure in showering me with love! What a gift this time is, especially after the lonely black desert I was in a couple years ago. So I will enjoy this time as fully as I can. As he may see it good for my character to taketh away.