wo xi huan ming tian

Did any one call me in the middle of the night last night? For you it wouldn't been in the middle of the day though. But someone called me and I was too tired to pick up, and now I am worried that it was something important, cuz you know usually people don't call in the middle of the night unless it's urgent. So I hope that every one and every thing is ok.

This week is FINALLY over. It wasn't terrible, it was just hard for me emotionally. I'm glad it's over. Classes today did not go very well. They did not listen to me, it was so out of control, and I felt completely powerless to do anything. I was this close to walking out and just going home. But I was thinking about it, and they could probably sense I was having an off day and just took advantage of it. Who knows.

On the way back from school I was thinking and realizing how long it's been since I've had a real hug. I just wanted someone to hold me so bad at that moment. And now it's all I can think about.

Today I was supposed to tell the school of my decision not to extend my contract into next year. I don't know why I'm worrying about it so much. I guess I don't trust them to take it well. Especially Mark. His special attentions are really starting to creep me out and one of these days I'm gonna have to tell him to back off. For one thing, he's married. Arg. So much drama, and I try so hard to avoid it.

I have only eleven more weeks to go. Doesn't seem like much in the grand scheme. Some days go slower then others. Today is one of those days.

On a brighter note, I discovered this awesome awesome chicken recipe when I was just playing around with my ingredients. It's incredible. I got some really cute clothes made for me at the tailors for apx. $5 per shirt. I painted my toe nails this morning. I learned some new words in Chinese. I'm enjoying my new little hobby of drying funky tropical fruit seeds for a friend. And it rained today. I love the rain. It seems dreary and sad at times, but it always makes things smell fresh and alive. Maybe there's an analogy in there for my life right now.

Any news from home would be more than welcome.