Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Want me, Lord

Just some thoughts from Scripture. I have more questions then revelations.

"...he alotted the times of their existence and the boundaries of the places where they would live, so that they would search for God and perhaps grope for him and find him--though he is not far from each one of us. For in him we live and move and have our being..."

Acts 17:26b-27

Perhaps this means that God was good enough to expand my boundaries into other parts of the world like China. He has increased my boundaries farther then others. Some peoples boundaries are smaller then others, but the Lord knows what is good for each of us.

But what of that next part... that I might search and grope and find GOD. Does this mean that some people don't have to search very hard or very far because he's easily found within their small boundaries, and others have their boundaries expanded where He requires deeper further prolonged groping covering more area, more places to search, more places where he can be hidden. Sometimes I feel that He's so so hard for me to find. The expanse in which I must search is overwhelming.

But what of that next part... he's not far from me. For IN Him I move. IN Him I have being. Maybe my perspective is wrong. Maybe He is the expanse. Because I am in him, He's increased my boundaries IN Him. I have no idea what that means or if it means anything at all. Maybe there's the posibility of some deepness there. But when it all comes down, I just want him to be close. Close enough to know him and touch him. ...He is not far.

I want to sing these words with a knowledge and not just a desire:
"getting lost in the light of your face...here i sit and rest my head up in your arms, to feel your breath and find the beating of your heart."


I can’t even love You unless You call my name
I can’t even worship unless You anoint my heart
I can’t even want to unless You want me first
Come fan the flame.
Getting Lost by Kelanie Gloeckler
What only you can do Misty Edwards

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